It's not always F@*%ing PMDD!

Seriously...
Sometime I can just be stressed, pissed, hurt or upset.  Seriously.

I have a high pressure job and am trying to maintain a long distance relationship....I'm tired....and I'm frickin' stressed.

Its bad enough that when PMDD takes over, I have feelings of self doubt, worthlessness and emptiness.  But, to have your boyfriend be over an hour away and only see him on the weekends can also take it's toll on ANY woman, PMDD or not.  Forchrissake!

It's impossible to do everything you want to do and be everything you want to be with someone when you only have about a day a week to spend with them.

And as if that's not enough, my job pulls me in a million directions a day, I'm always going, always "on" and can barely eat lunch let alone make time to go to the bathroom during the day.  Jebus...can't a girl just have a bad day?!?

It's just the icing on the cake that I can't seem to catch a breath in my own home...never-mind the fact that the person who should be the most nurturing to me says stuff to me like "there's really something wrong with you".  Did she really just say that to me!?!?

Ugh.

I try not to be a selfish person.  PMDD makes me feel at time as though I AM being selfish since I need to isolate and shut down at times.  When, truthfully, I'm isolating and shutting down to PROTECT those I care about the MOST.

When is it OK to shut down just because I'm human??  When is it OK for me to say I just need a minute - for the sake of needing a minute?  Being "on" all day could be super stressful for someone who doesn't deal with the hormonal insanity and all the bullsh*t PMDD puts on us.  Why do I always have to blame it on "being sick"?!?

Errrrr....end rant....ugh/